Sitonicsa - Breaking Point

I smiled when you asked me said
I'm fine like before
Trading the truth for a story retold
When my life feels like it's falling apart
I put the smile on like a coat and coat
Counting the shadows just to measure pain
There are days
I go quiet
Just to prove
I'm still there if
I tell you the truth, will you stay
On the line
I don't have an answer.
I just know
I'm tired
I don't think
I'm doing very well again
I'm being honest
I'm really struggling.
I carry the mourning like a weight in my chest.
And when you say my name, I try my best.
I
Don't think
I'm doing very well again but
I'm still here
So let me breathe a little then
I'm missing out this sunday
I could perform twice
Mama asked if
I'm eating
I said yes and lied
There's a note by the window
With a list
I can't begin
Every little thing feels heavy
When the room in if
I tell you the truth, don't try to make it neat.
Just sit beside the silence till my hands stop shaking.
I
Don't think
I'm doing very well again
I'm being honest
I'm really struggling.
I carry the morning like a weight in my chest.
And I
Hear you saying my name.
I try my best
I don't think
I'm doing very well again but
I'm still here
So let me breathe a little then
Maybe healing isn't for me maybe
I can take it slow
You don't have to fix the pieces
You can help me hold them close.
I don't think
I'm doing very well again
I'm being honest
I'm really struggling.
But if tomorrow
Finds me softer than today, I'll take
One small step and let it be enough for now.
I don't think
I'm doing very well again but
I'm still here and
I'm learning how to be
I'm still here
Let me breathe
I'm still here
Please stay with me
I'm still here
Please heal
I'm still here
Let me find peace in this dark place